So, I hate school. It's the same crap over and over. I wonder if it's really worth doing all this crap. Humans weren't meant to sit around and be so divided from nature. It can't be healthy to be doing homework and studying for long hours with no outside diversions. Sometimes I think that I was born in the wrong era. The 60's and 70's seem like they'd have been so much more kind to me. Because going through life as it currently is totally sucks. Usually around this time of the semester my wintertime depression is lifting, but not this year. It's been steadily building. I think I'm being worn out from school. I just don't know how much more of this I can take. I'm too stubborn to quit, but I don't think I'll be qualified enough to graduate AND get a job. I'm afraid that if I do get a job, I'll be the only biomed on the engineering team and I'll make some major mistake in my design and I'll end up killing the people I'm trying to help. Hopefully I'll realize that I am qualified and that this is all just a bout of low self esteem. Ha, it would be nice to wake up and realize that my college life was all just a dream and that I'm actually out in the world furthering some career that I am not only excel in but one that I also immensely enjoy.

Sorry for wasting your time, but I warned you.

mood: disappointed